A simple kind of life.

I have to blog while everything is still fresh in my mind.

So all I have to say is wow. As you know tonight I was at the No Doubt concert here in Indianapolis with a friend of mine. I was a little skeptical. I was never a big fan of No Doubt and I heard Gwen Stefani on Mtv and that sort of thing. So I didn't expect to like it so much. But I did. The show was fucking amazing. Everything in their performance went perfectly together. I wish I could describe it to you in a better way. Some of the highlights I suppose... Them playing my favorite song Rocksteady in their encore. Gwen singing a song which I can't remember and at the line I always thought I'd be a mom starting to cry. Which is something I don't think I'll ever forget. It made her seem so real and on all of our levels. Lastly the fact that she went in the pit twice and brought a fan on stage to dance and take a photo with them. All of that and more just made tonight a lot more than I expected it to be. So I know this whole paragraph makes me sound like a total fan, but I think now I am. No Doubt is the shit.

For a long time I was in love. Not only in love, I was obsessed. With a friendship that no one else could touch. It didn't work out, I'm covered in shells. And all I wanted was the simple things. A simple kind of life. And all I needed was a simple man. So I could be a wife. I'm so ashamed, I've been so mean. I don't know how it got to this point. I always was the one with all the love. You came along, I'm hunting you down. Like a sick domestic abuser looking for a fight. And all I wanted was the simple things. A simple kind of life. If we met tomorrow for the very first time. Would it start all over again? Would I try to make you mine? I always thought I'd be a mom. Sometimes I wish for a mistake. The longer that I wait the more selfish that I get. You seem like you'd be a good dad. Now all those simple things are simply too complicated for my life. How'd I get so faithful to my freedom? A selfish kind of life. When all I ever wanted was the simple things. A simple kind of life

On another note I think I just okayed a virus to destroy my computer... fuck my life.